TOUGH WEEK

Assalamu'alaikum wbt.

I'm sitting beside tok ayah, listening to one of his stories back when he was young. We are both at University Malaya Medical Centre. Yes, tok ayah is in the hospital, admitted for his lung infection and low blood pressure. It's been 5 days now.

I gotta say, this week has been one of the toughest week for me this year.

I screwed up at work. Lately I have been screwing up with work very frequently that I hate myself for it. I lost focus, I was exhausted, I was stressed. Too many things to do, too little time to do it. I was overwhelmed.

It started all on last Wednesday.
At the same time I received news about tok ayah's lung infection. I broke down.

Let's not elaborate.
Enough said that I was frustrated with myself in terms of work, and I was sad thinking about tok ayah.

It's funny how when all these happen, there's no one here with me. I mean physically. My parents are far away, my best friends are away. I'm all alone. And I feel even more depressed. And I have never felt this lonely in a long time.

But then again, this is a test from Allah. Every now and then, my faith to Him has to be tested. What is faith without tests? Right? Life is not a walk in the park. Life is tough. As long as this depression brings me closer to Him, I will take it.

I believe this test is a way of Him showing me how much I am loved and blessed.

So yes, I can face this.

I will get through this, with Him by my side and in my heart. I will have the strength. Because my strength lies in knowing that He is here for me, no matter what. When no one is here with me, He is. When no one shows they care, He does. When I don't believe in myself, He believes in me.

And for Him, I will get through this.

May Allah swt be with me and all of you through our hard times. May our hard times strengthen our relationship with Him. And may we all be reminded that at the end of the day, He is all that matters.

Ameen Ya Rabbal'alamin.

ADAM & HAWA

This morning Azy buzzed me at YM. 

Tiba-tiba, dia tulis "Kenapa cium kain tu... cium laa tuan yg kasi kain tu."

"Hang ni pasaipa dengan tak semena-mena ni punya gatai? Bila masa hang bagi aku kain?" aku jawab. Musim mengawan ka ni? Bisik hati ku. 

"Aku dok tengok Adam & Hawa rah! Sweettttt sangat...!" dia menjawab. 

Ooh.. yeah, drama ni memang tengah hot skarang. 
Adam & Hawa is everywhere - in Facebook, Twitter. Everyone is talking about how sweet, romantic this drama is. Maybe I'll check it out when I have the time.

"Kenapa cium kain tu... cium laa tuan yang kasi kain tu." 

Memang sweet. 
Aku yang baru dengaq ni pun berbunga-bunga hati, tersengih macam kerang busuk di depan laptop ni. Belum lagi tengok cerita ni. Kalau tengok, aku tak tau la nak gatai lagu mana. Takot la pulak nak tengok cerita ni!

"Sinilah sayang... Tempat isteri kan di sisi suami." Azy menaip lagi. 

PERGH! Memang cayaq terok la aku. 

Azy menyambung, "Aku klau a guy call me 'sayang'... DAH LOMPAT TINGGI... LOMPAT BINTANG SUMA."

Aku pulak jawab, "Aku kalau husband aku panggil aku 'sayang', aku bukan kata lompat bintang, LOMPAT KATAK, LOMPAT KANGAROO semua sekali kot." 

"Kalau Ijah nnt KETUK KETAMPI la kot," Azy menambah. 

"Lepaih ketuk ketampi, dia nanti LARI DALAM GUNI pulak," aku boh lagi nasik tambah kot ataih. 

So to all guys out there, lihatlah betapa gembiranya if you call your spouse dengan romantiknya. "Sayang", "Sweetheart", "Darling" etc memang boleh melembutkan lagi hati wanita yang dah sememangnya lembut. 

Yes, it is a given that you love your wife. 

Yes, your wife knows that you love her without saying it. 

But like what Mufti Menk said, "Your wife is given ears by Allah swt, and you are given a mouth by Allah swt. So tell her how much you love her, because she needs to hear it." 

Same goes to all of us, ladies. 
Same goes to us. 

May Allah swt grant us happiness with our spouse in life and the hereafter. 
Ameen Ya Rabbal'alamin. 
 

Ya Allah, kurniakan aku seorang suami yang soleh. Ameen.

TWILIGHT THE BIJIK SAGA - Breaking Dawn Part 2

Yesterday Azy and I went to watch Twilight Breaking Dawn Part 2. I am not a Twilight fan. I just don’t get why 2 good-looking guys chasing a girl who doesn’t even have a character. I just don’t get it. Anyway, cik Azimah kita ni la nak tengok sangat Jacob dia tu… benci punya pasai ikut ja la pi.. (sayang tak mau mengaku punya kawan aku ni)

The story shows how Bella has become a vampire, and that Edward and her have a child named Renesmeberry. What? The name is wrong? Haaa.. sebab tu la orang-orang tua pesan jangan dok boh nama anak payah-payah. Siti, Aminah, Rosnah, Sakinah semua dok ada, dok pilih yang susah-susah pasaipa. (tak sedaq diri nama aku Nurisfahanis)

So yeah, they have a computer-generate child. It’s so obvious I find it funny. Even scary. They should’ve spent more time making it look more real. Tapi come to think about it again, tu anak vampire, it IS supposed to look scary. Ok enough about the baby.

Other than the fact that menjadi anak derhaka sebab tinggai mak bapak hanya kerana seorang kekasih, another thing that I find irritating about Bella is her mouth yang constantly ternganga.

Aku bisik kat Azy, “Deni awat suka nganga. Sampai aku terikut ternganga sekali ni. Lengoh mulut aku.”

Then there was a scene where Bella’s dad came to see her for the first time after she became a vampire. Edward whispered to Jacob and the rest of the family, “Let’s give them some privacy guys.”

“Yang deni pulak becakap macam dalam mulut ada emaih pasai pa tak tau. Cakap apapun tak dengaq. Macam penakot ja.. Pontianak penakot ka?!” Azy pulak hangat ati kat Edward sebab tak becakap kuat macam dia.

Aku pun apa lagi.. boh nasik tambah la… “Tula pasai. Becakap lagu orang saket. Kalau lagu ni punya becakap lagu mana nak pi interview keja semua nanti? Memang tak dapat la keja tu...Kalau masuk Kadet Remaja Sekolah, confirm la tak dapat dapat jadi komander!”

Dan dalam kegelapan panggung tu, aku boleh “nampak” Azy bagi amboi-deni-menyimpang-terok-aih punya look kat aku.

We arrived at the last scene of the movie.

Bella and Edward were at a beautiful sort of garden, full of flowers in purple. Both of them so deeply in love, Bella expressing how much she loves Edward bla bla bla. And then, she looked at him and said, “I have to tell you something…”

“MENGANDUNG pulak dah?” aku menyampuk ala-ala mami jarum the movie.

Azy yang baru sudah menelan ayaq mineral water yang dibeli di Jusco itu tergelak besaq.

“Hang ni nasib baik aku dan telan ayaq! Kalau tak, tersemboq ayaq aku minum, basah kepala maknya depan ni rah!" 

Kalau la jadi lagu tu, si Voliture and the Cullen & Gang tak jadi berperang dalam movie tu, KAMI yang nanti perang dengan maknya dalam panggung tu. 

What? It's not Voliture? Haa tu la. Boh nama orang jahat pun bukan main punya susah. Tengok P. Ramlee. Dia boh Sarip Dol ja. Sampai lani orang ingat.  

Kesimpulannya, aku tak dak la rasa nak strangle myself after watching this movie. It is okay compared to the last one. 

However, I didn't like the way the director told the story. 

Nothing creative about how it was shot. 

Script pun biasa ja, nothing deep. 

And Bella is very much emotionally disconnected from her daughter. 
I didn't feel her love for Renesmulberryblackberrybold.   

Sekain. Eh, sekian. 

 

 

Edward dan Bella sedang bercengkerama di bawah sinar lampu minyak tanah.

 

 

Tengok! Tengok cincin pun nak tenganga. Tak penah tengok cincin ka? Awat yang aku dok hangat ati sangat kat Bella ni pun aku tak tau la.