TOUGH WEEK

Assalamu'alaikum wbt.

I'm sitting beside tok ayah, listening to one of his stories back when he was young. We are both at University Malaya Medical Centre. Yes, tok ayah is in the hospital, admitted for his lung infection and low blood pressure. It's been 5 days now.

I gotta say, this week has been one of the toughest week for me this year.

I screwed up at work. Lately I have been screwing up with work very frequently that I hate myself for it. I lost focus, I was exhausted, I was stressed. Too many things to do, too little time to do it. I was overwhelmed.

It started all on last Wednesday.
At the same time I received news about tok ayah's lung infection. I broke down.

Let's not elaborate.
Enough said that I was frustrated with myself in terms of work, and I was sad thinking about tok ayah.

It's funny how when all these happen, there's no one here with me. I mean physically. My parents are far away, my best friends are away. I'm all alone. And I feel even more depressed. And I have never felt this lonely in a long time.

But then again, this is a test from Allah. Every now and then, my faith to Him has to be tested. What is faith without tests? Right? Life is not a walk in the park. Life is tough. As long as this depression brings me closer to Him, I will take it.

I believe this test is a way of Him showing me how much I am loved and blessed.

So yes, I can face this.

I will get through this, with Him by my side and in my heart. I will have the strength. Because my strength lies in knowing that He is here for me, no matter what. When no one is here with me, He is. When no one shows they care, He does. When I don't believe in myself, He believes in me.

And for Him, I will get through this.

May Allah swt be with me and all of you through our hard times. May our hard times strengthen our relationship with Him. And may we all be reminded that at the end of the day, He is all that matters.

Ameen Ya Rabbal'alamin.

ADAM & HAWA

This morning Azy buzzed me at YM. 

Tiba-tiba, dia tulis "Kenapa cium kain tu... cium laa tuan yg kasi kain tu."

"Hang ni pasaipa dengan tak semena-mena ni punya gatai? Bila masa hang bagi aku kain?" aku jawab. Musim mengawan ka ni? Bisik hati ku. 

"Aku dok tengok Adam & Hawa rah! Sweettttt sangat...!" dia menjawab. 

Ooh.. yeah, drama ni memang tengah hot skarang. 
Adam & Hawa is everywhere - in Facebook, Twitter. Everyone is talking about how sweet, romantic this drama is. Maybe I'll check it out when I have the time.

"Kenapa cium kain tu... cium laa tuan yang kasi kain tu." 

Memang sweet. 
Aku yang baru dengaq ni pun berbunga-bunga hati, tersengih macam kerang busuk di depan laptop ni. Belum lagi tengok cerita ni. Kalau tengok, aku tak tau la nak gatai lagu mana. Takot la pulak nak tengok cerita ni!

"Sinilah sayang... Tempat isteri kan di sisi suami." Azy menaip lagi. 

PERGH! Memang cayaq terok la aku. 

Azy menyambung, "Aku klau a guy call me 'sayang'... DAH LOMPAT TINGGI... LOMPAT BINTANG SUMA."

Aku pulak jawab, "Aku kalau husband aku panggil aku 'sayang', aku bukan kata lompat bintang, LOMPAT KATAK, LOMPAT KANGAROO semua sekali kot." 

"Kalau Ijah nnt KETUK KETAMPI la kot," Azy menambah. 

"Lepaih ketuk ketampi, dia nanti LARI DALAM GUNI pulak," aku boh lagi nasik tambah kot ataih. 

So to all guys out there, lihatlah betapa gembiranya if you call your spouse dengan romantiknya. "Sayang", "Sweetheart", "Darling" etc memang boleh melembutkan lagi hati wanita yang dah sememangnya lembut. 

Yes, it is a given that you love your wife. 

Yes, your wife knows that you love her without saying it. 

But like what Mufti Menk said, "Your wife is given ears by Allah swt, and you are given a mouth by Allah swt. So tell her how much you love her, because she needs to hear it." 

Same goes to all of us, ladies. 
Same goes to us. 

May Allah swt grant us happiness with our spouse in life and the hereafter. 
Ameen Ya Rabbal'alamin. 
 

Ya Allah, kurniakan aku seorang suami yang soleh. Ameen.

TWILIGHT THE BIJIK SAGA - Breaking Dawn Part 2

Yesterday Azy and I went to watch Twilight Breaking Dawn Part 2. I am not a Twilight fan. I just don’t get why 2 good-looking guys chasing a girl who doesn’t even have a character. I just don’t get it. Anyway, cik Azimah kita ni la nak tengok sangat Jacob dia tu… benci punya pasai ikut ja la pi.. (sayang tak mau mengaku punya kawan aku ni)

The story shows how Bella has become a vampire, and that Edward and her have a child named Renesmeberry. What? The name is wrong? Haaa.. sebab tu la orang-orang tua pesan jangan dok boh nama anak payah-payah. Siti, Aminah, Rosnah, Sakinah semua dok ada, dok pilih yang susah-susah pasaipa. (tak sedaq diri nama aku Nurisfahanis)

So yeah, they have a computer-generate child. It’s so obvious I find it funny. Even scary. They should’ve spent more time making it look more real. Tapi come to think about it again, tu anak vampire, it IS supposed to look scary. Ok enough about the baby.

Other than the fact that menjadi anak derhaka sebab tinggai mak bapak hanya kerana seorang kekasih, another thing that I find irritating about Bella is her mouth yang constantly ternganga.

Aku bisik kat Azy, “Deni awat suka nganga. Sampai aku terikut ternganga sekali ni. Lengoh mulut aku.”

Then there was a scene where Bella’s dad came to see her for the first time after she became a vampire. Edward whispered to Jacob and the rest of the family, “Let’s give them some privacy guys.”

“Yang deni pulak becakap macam dalam mulut ada emaih pasai pa tak tau. Cakap apapun tak dengaq. Macam penakot ja.. Pontianak penakot ka?!” Azy pulak hangat ati kat Edward sebab tak becakap kuat macam dia.

Aku pun apa lagi.. boh nasik tambah la… “Tula pasai. Becakap lagu orang saket. Kalau lagu ni punya becakap lagu mana nak pi interview keja semua nanti? Memang tak dapat la keja tu...Kalau masuk Kadet Remaja Sekolah, confirm la tak dapat dapat jadi komander!”

Dan dalam kegelapan panggung tu, aku boleh “nampak” Azy bagi amboi-deni-menyimpang-terok-aih punya look kat aku.

We arrived at the last scene of the movie.

Bella and Edward were at a beautiful sort of garden, full of flowers in purple. Both of them so deeply in love, Bella expressing how much she loves Edward bla bla bla. And then, she looked at him and said, “I have to tell you something…”

“MENGANDUNG pulak dah?” aku menyampuk ala-ala mami jarum the movie.

Azy yang baru sudah menelan ayaq mineral water yang dibeli di Jusco itu tergelak besaq.

“Hang ni nasib baik aku dan telan ayaq! Kalau tak, tersemboq ayaq aku minum, basah kepala maknya depan ni rah!" 

Kalau la jadi lagu tu, si Voliture and the Cullen & Gang tak jadi berperang dalam movie tu, KAMI yang nanti perang dengan maknya dalam panggung tu. 

What? It's not Voliture? Haa tu la. Boh nama orang jahat pun bukan main punya susah. Tengok P. Ramlee. Dia boh Sarip Dol ja. Sampai lani orang ingat.  

Kesimpulannya, aku tak dak la rasa nak strangle myself after watching this movie. It is okay compared to the last one. 

However, I didn't like the way the director told the story. 

Nothing creative about how it was shot. 

Script pun biasa ja, nothing deep. 

And Bella is very much emotionally disconnected from her daughter. 
I didn't feel her love for Renesmulberryblackberrybold.   

Sekain. Eh, sekian. 

 

 

Edward dan Bella sedang bercengkerama di bawah sinar lampu minyak tanah.

 

 

Tengok! Tengok cincin pun nak tenganga. Tak penah tengok cincin ka? Awat yang aku dok hangat ati sangat kat Bella ni pun aku tak tau la.

10 Things I Should Not Do When Riding Motorcycle (but I do it anyway)

1. Day dreaming (which I’m soo damn good at)
2. Listening to the radio (because ‘Fafau’ and ‘FBI’ crack me up and simply because it is so damn bored riding a 45-minutes journey listening to the sound of the engine)
3. Glancing at Volkswagen Golf (it’s too beautiful~~)
4. Singing (well, I don’t really sing but when it comes to my fav song, sometimes I feel like singing along and that’s when all the dusts from the streets, cars, other motorcycles, buses, lorries, go into my mouth.)
5. Wearing make up (I’m not really a make up kinda girl but when I’m in the mood, I’ll spend some time to put some on. Then, here comes the rain and there goes my make up. Damn!)
6. Wearing lipstick (again, the dusts. By the time I get to the office, instead the color of pink, I get the color of black on my lips)
7. Yawning (again, the dusts)
8. Passing at the corner (I know it’s dangerous, but, hear me out. When you come across a guy riding at 20km/h, would you wait??? If I run, I’d still be faster that him. I haven’t got all day for God’s sake. I’m late for work!)
9. Forget to check the side mirror (I do look at it from time to time but there’s a time when I just checked it and all of a sudden this maniac passed me like a hurricane! I could have a heart attack if this happened everyday!)
10. Sneezing (do you realize that everytime you sneeze, your eyes will automatically close itself? So my friend suggested – pull over if you feel like sneezing. It’s like “I need to stop to sneeze!”)

GOOD CRAP

I was browsing through my hardisk, and found soooo many crap! Good crap, I mean. This is one of it. My chat with an ex-classmate, Eryn. Laughed my ass off when I read this. God I miss her and the rest of the classmates :) 

(She just shared with me lyrics of a song. Masa ni dia tengah dilamun cinta agaknya) 

 

Me: sedapppp

Eryn: hehehhe. nak kasi ko dgr, ko takde earphone

Aku: Lagu sapa tu? Lagu negara uganda ka?

Eryn: vina panduwinata. indon la mangkuk

Me: ooo... aku ingatkan national anthem uganda. pelik gak. cane uganda pandai cakap melayu lak. huhu

Eryn: ko bangang ke bodoh nie

Me: ehehehe. Pelikkan. ko slalu ja kata aku bodoh, bangang, tapi aku tak penah nak kecik ati

Eryn: astaga udang

Me: tapi bile ko bubuh name anak ko xde aura nama aku, aku kecik ati.

Eryn: nasib baik jarak opis ko ngan aku agak jauh. aku sambar kilat motor ko lagik kang. biar tinggal wayar je

Me: moto ade wayar ke?

Eryn: ko seret la wayar tu jenjalan. ade.

Me: wayar kipas opis ko yang ko cucuk kat laptop daus ka? ko pening ke dengan soalan aku ini?

Erynos: huh. aku memang dah penin, ko nak peningkan pun, suke ati ko la. 

Hahaha....! Now is she happily married with 2 kids! 

Time changes everything, but I hope she is still the same, crazy Eryn I know. 

ZAMAN DEGREE

Pada suatu hari, sang rimau berasa sangat boring membuat assignment yang diberikan oleh sang rahim. Lalu sang rimau pun kuar dari habitatnya lalu mencari apa2 jenis sang yang boleh dikacau untuk  menghilangkan kebosanannya itu.

Kira-kira pukul 3 petang macam tu, sang rimau telah sesat lalu ternampak seekor spesis yang panjang ekornye. Sang rimau pun hairan. “Sape lak ni menyemak je kat sini.” bisik sang rimau. Lalu sang rimau pun mendekati makhluk Tuhan yang tak brape seksi itu.

"Ohh berbulu... macam aku jugak.. ,” bisik ati sang rimau apabile melihat makhluk yang berbulu itu. Sang rimau menyembunyikan dirinya di belakang tabir.

Ketika itu makhluk yang berbulu itu sedang membuat sesuatu. "Nampaknye die dah tau aku ade kat blakang tabir ni” bisik sang rimau lagi. Sang rimau bersiap sedia sekiranya makhluk berbulu dan berekor panjang itu menyerangnya. Makhluk itu bergerak, lalu tanpa berfikir panjang lagi, sang rimau menerkam makhluk berbulu dan berekor panjang itu dengan ganas sekali.

"WARRGHHH!!!” sang rimau mengaum. Yang peliknye, tak tekejut pulak si makhluk berbulu dan berekor panjang itu.

Lalu sang rimau pun bertanya, "Nape ko ni? Ape ko buat ni?”

"Aku tengah main SIMS. Jangan kaco aku,” jawab si makhluk yang berbulu dan berekor panjang itu. Lalu sang rimau pun sudah ilang kebosanan dan pulang untuk menghabiskan assignment sang rahim yang akan disubmit esok.

Sekian.

Soalan minggu ini:

1) Apakah nama makhluk berbulu dan berekor panjang di dalam cerpen di atas?

Kejadian di Rumah Terbuka Tourism Malaysia

My bosses and I went to Tourism Malaysia's Raya Open House today at Putrajaya. 
As soon as we stepped into the hall, I put down my handbag and went straight to get some food. Lapaq tahap ketaq kepala lutut. 

So lepaih amik makanan tu, aku pun makan sambil sembang-sembang dengan my client.
Siap ada entertainment lagi... this lady tengah menyanyi lagu Raya. I asked my client who she was, and she said "Orang Tourism jugak ni... yang dancers tu semua orang Tourism jugak." 

Berbakat besaq orang-orang Tourism ni. 
I feel intimidated. 

Tengah aku layan nasik minyak yang boleh tahan sedapnya tu, tiba-tiba dengaq someone menyanyi lagu ni....


Belaian Jiwa!! One of my all-time favourite Malay songs. 
Dalam hati teruih terdetik... "huish! merdu sungguh mamat Tourism ni menyanyi... boleh jatuh cinta!" 
So aku pun sing along sambil mata tertumpu kat pinggan nasik yang dipenuhi nasik, daging cincang and ayam tandoori tu. Tak kira la mulut penuh nasik ka, tandoori ka, aku nak menyanyi gak. I mean come on, who doesn't know this song should just go jump off a bridge. GO NOW! 

Then, habis ja lagu tu, dia sambung menyanyi lagu ni pulak....


Pergh! Rindu Bayangan pulak dah. Lagu ever green is da bomb!
Makin sedap aih aku rasa ayam tandoori ni. 

I turned to my client, "Fuyooo.. lagu best ni! Dah la suara sedap gila!" 

My client smiled and said, "Tu la pasal..."

I continued, "Tak la, ni suara dia sedap gila sebijik macam Jay Jay kot. Memang best. Berbakat besar ni..." 

Then my client gave me a weird look. She said, "Anis, cuba hang tengok betoi-betoi." 

Aku pun tengok la ke arah pentas tu.
Patut la suara macam Jay Jay.......  
DAH MEMANG JAY JAY DOK MENYANYI ANIS OI.....!